The real story...

Sume mesti tertanya2 kan kenapa title the real story...

Only Family n closest friends know...

So now i would like to share the true story...

I met with an accident on the 27th October 2006 it is the 4th hari raya..
I'm on my way back home after visiting Sofia house with C DIA (yg tgh complicated)..
Terbabas after anta C DIA balek umah..
It was Heavy rain n the road is sooo slippery..i only drive 60km/h
lepas terbabas tuh i just black out skejap but during the rescuing time i do hear voices of people that trying to rescue me..
They try their best to get me out from the ca r quickly because the car is on fire..
How it got on fire???i don't have the answer..
Because of ambulance kerajaan sgt lmbat ade lah pakcik yg murah hati anta kan ke hospital..
and then i was admitted to HSA (hospital sultanah aminah)..
During in the emergency room I was awake n heard the arrival of my mom n sis with tears..
I was sent 2 times to the X-ray room to determine which part of leg yg fractured...
Later that evening i was sent to the ward..


This is 2nd day baru je lepas transfer dari stroler (yg kaler biru tu) to katil yg tgh baring tu..
Masa ni baru lepas pasang besi2 kat bawah lutut untuk tarik tulang kaki so operation untuk masukkan besi kat tulang punggung yg pecah tu boleh di buat..


ni nurse tgh bersih2kan bekas darah yg kat jahitan kat lutut...
lutut I berlubang tau sebab hentakan dari dpn yg menyebabkan tulang peha menghentak ke tulang punggung n tulang punggung pecah 3..

Nih la gmbo dkt antenna2 kat kaki I for temporary...

Nih muke i yg teruk gile kat area dahi belah kiri masa nih dahi berlubang dgn kaca2 cermin kereta sume bnyak termasuk kat situ.
Masa nih belom buat ape2 surgery lg kat situ.
Even rmbut yg penuh dgn darah pun belum nurse bersihkan...
Petang tu mama yg cuci kan rambut sbb dh keras dgn darah2..

Even after the plastic surgery pun still ade serpihan kaca kecik2 yg terpaksa cungkil sendiri masa kat umah...n kdg2 klu serpihan tu besar terpaksa g klinik..

nih bekas darah dari kaki td yg baru lepas cucuk dgn antenna...
Smpi skg bekas2 jahitan or kmlgn tuh masih ade...
termasuk lah bekas dlm hati I..
Anyway kena terima hakikat...


yg kini bertongkat adalah satu kemestian n wajib...
just waiting time for major operation next year..
bone transplant...

*Listen - Beyonce*

"Listen"

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

[Chorus]

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

♥♥☆♥UNGU HAMPA HATIKU♥☆♥♥

Pernahkah kau merasa [2x]
Cukup sudah kuberikan cintaku
Cukup sudah rasa ini untukkmu
Mati sudah hati ini padamu
Mati sudah hasrat ingin bersamamu

Reff:
Pernahkah kau merasa
Hatimu Hampa
Pernahkah kau merasa
Hatimu Kosong

repeat reff

Buang saja semua kata cintamu
Buang saja semua kata maafmu
Hancur sudah hati ini padamu
Hancur sudah hasrat ingin bersamamu

repeat reff [2x]

Rap:
pernahkah, pernahkah kau merasa
dikala siang datang terasa gelap gulita
tiada cahaya hanya gelap hitam dan kelam
tak ada lagi suka tak ada rasa
pernahkah, pernah pernah pernah pernahkah, pernahkah kau merasa
disaat diri terlelap
meski gemuruh kian beradu slalu mengaduh
kau tetap terlelap dalam tidurmu

Dangdut:
Maafkan aku sayangku
Bukan maksudku menyakitimu, mengkhianatimu
Ampuni aku sayangku
Cukup katakan aku tak lagi mencintaimu

Pernahkah kau merasa [3x]

repeat reff [2x]

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

He cheated on me!!!!!

Well i know that it's not good to jump into conclusion...
But real things that happen in front of my eyes will not lie to what i feel..

situation: In watson Jusco Tebrau (waiting for muvie on 9.10pm)

Just trying the new cat eyes Maybelline Mascara n suddenly a guy n a girl wearing Jusco uniform at my right side are laughing together intimately.

Once i turn my head i saw a man that i have known for 5 years..after a glimpse of them he suddenly took off..
i don't know where he go but he went quickly like to avoid me..
after a while i saw he comin back to the Watson n ask the gurl to pay n the best part is he pay for the gurl...

once they walking out the Watson I decided to follow them..
once I'm nearer i saw the gurl kinda hugging him..
at that time i felt that i just fall from level 13 buiding..
i come through them n said something...

"bestnya dating time keje eh??bile ajak dating takde masa n busy"
with cool face he reply...
"mengular..mengular ni mengular nama nya"

n i only can pinch him..i try to slap him but seriously I can't i don't know why..my hand are shaking like h**l....

after the incident i continue our main purpose of being there...watching muvie...
having a great ladies night...

situation: parking lot jusco tebrau..

On the way to go back home..
in the mean time i was waiting for atie while she pay for the parking tiket it was a long queue
n i keep thinking about atie suggestion earlier to search for his car n wait for him and ask for his explanation..
n indeed i do..
we go n search for his car..btw i don't really memorise his flat num..
n thank god...i saw him trying to help his colleague to open her car without car keys..
n i waited for him..waiting waiting..
we discuss in his car..with the kakak yg tak dpt buka kereta dia n dia nk hantar balek..
we argue a bit..firstly he was quite quiet...
later he tell that he has nothing to explain..
but later he admit that she is his scandal...
n that gurl is a wife with 3 kids..
he tell me that he will explain later...
i do not trust him at first....
but later i ask him to look straight to my eyes n tell me the truth..
i started to trust him a bit not fully trust..

but later when i arrived home i just cannot accept his explanation...
he said he just helping that gurl by giving attention.because the gurl have problem with her husband..

he said i do know that he like to help others..but ever he thought of helping me???
he have the time to giving atttention to that gurl, giving love n affection but why not me??
I'm his gf...n i never get his full attention...
do all mens are jerk??..
they are not but they do not learn from mistake n never try understand women heart..

for him...Syg i know i am not the same person u know me before..
i have change majorly n minor...
but it is not reasons for my love to change..
n my heart n my love still the same...
whether we belong together or not it is in god hands..
if u think that never will anyone understand u just trust that i understand u..
really really understand u..
but please don't make me feel that i am an idiot by trusting your words if u intend to lie to me..
I hope u read this..but i know u never because u don't know bout this..
n i will n just keep understand u learn to know u..

Down the memory lane.....

Wah rindu nya pada kamo sume...(sorry lupe nk ajak shaleen)
heheh hari ni aku kuar umah just nk jmpe efa, sop n ecah...
efa dh msg dr semalam nk ajak kuar...
so aku pun gerak g johor jaya dulu kerana ada urusan petang td....
lastly dpt la jmpe sop n efa yg sekian lama kitorg dh lama tak hangout sama..
memndangkan sume sibuk dh jd susah nk jmpe...



sop dh kerja dgn Rentokil dh skg..
she has her own car...n..
a New BF k...(utk pengetahuan shaleen)

ecah n efa tgh tanam anggur tggu kerja tu...(1 team dgn shaleen)

Sofia, Elly n Iffah....

(masih kurang 1 corum =Shaleen)

Agnes Monica - [HQ] Teruskanlah (New Single)

Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak di dengar
Tak di anggap
Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak di beri
Kesempatan

Reff :
Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta buta
Kebutuhan mu

Back to reff.

Hoo.. Hooo

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah... teruskan lah.

AGNES MONICA - DAN TAK MUNGKIN ( SEXY )

RAMA saat-saat terindah(ost cinta untuk ain)

Saat kau hadir dalam hidupku terasa indah
Hanya bayangmu menyentuh jiwa, temani sepi
Kini s`mua cintamu tlah pergi
Meninggalkan diriku dalam kehampaan sendiri

Waktu t`rus berjalan dan memberi perih di hati
Hanya rindu yang aku dapatkan bukan cintamu
Kini baru aku menyadari
Kau begitu berarti didalam hidupku ini

Saat - saat yg indah, saat masih bersamamu
Waktu kita berdua dan mewarnai dunia
Semua yang telah berlalu
Kini teringat lagi, kini terkenang lagi
kuingin kembali, oOOo kuingin kembali

Hanya rindu yang aku dapatkan, bukan cintamu
Meski kini kau tak mencintai diriku lagi
Kini baru aku menyadari
Kau begitu berarti didalam hidupku ini

Saat - saat yg indah, saat masih bersamamu
Waktu kita berdua dan mewarnai dunia
Semua yang telah berlalu
Kini teringat lagi, kini terkenang lagi
Kuingin kembali,oOOo kuingin kembali

Seventeen-selalu mengalah

jelaskan padaku isi hatimu
seberapa besar kau yakin padaku
untuk tetap bisa bertahan denganku
menjaga cinta ini
pertengkaran yang terjadi
seperti semua salahku

reff:
mengapa selalu aku yang mengalah
tak pernah kah kau berpikir
sedikit tentang hatiku

mengapa ku yang harus selalu mengalah
pantaskah hatiku
masih bisa bersamamu

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

ALEXA- jangan Kau lepas

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..

Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini
Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak di sini
oh..

Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi

[Reff:]
Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Ho..ho..ho..ho..
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

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picture from the Terengganu holiday